Monday, December 31, 2012

My 2012

Time flies!

It's the last day of 2012 and i was like "Where the hell did the year go?".

Like any other year, 2012 is bittersweet for me;

-started the new year as newlyweds on honeymoon. Hanimun kat Langkawi je pon but it's precious! Head in the cloud to finally call him my husband.
-on the morning of 23/2/12, we found out i was pregnant. It was a happy-but-OMG-are-we-ready-to-be-parents? feeling.
-went to Evanasence concert that night and for the first time, tak melompat kat concert kahkahkah. In fact i kept covering my tummy supaya baby dalam perot tak dengar lagu2 tak berpaedah ni. Konon lah khennn?
-on the 8th week of pregnancy i was hospitalized for what we thought was dengue fever. I had rashes all over my body with fever at the temperature of 40celcius. I was so scared, afraid to lose my baby. Turned out it was viral fever and Alhamdulillah the little one was ok.
-two weeks after i found out i was pregnant, As also found out she's pregnant and we have the same EDD!! 2 bulan pastu, Chuna lak found out she's pregnant! It's exciting to be pregnant along with your close friends. We (especially As & i.. Maybe because of our same-age pregnancy) share the joy and pains of pregnancy together. Layan je bila each other ada cravings makan apa-apa. 
-went to Phuket for a vacation with my best friends and husband (dia sakit time tu tapi degil gak nak gi). Was nice to be with loved ones and soaked in the sun, sea and sand.
-had our second wedding reception in Kuching when i was 4 months pregnant in May. It was tiring but mannnn it was fun! Thanks mama and babah for giving us a beautiful wedding ;)
-finally really get to be in a team where i did the geological part and learn how to build a static model.
-nenek went to Mecca to perform umrah. So happy to see that she's happy
-first time celebrating Aidilfitri as husband and wife! First time jugak ikot in laws ke Sibu and Matu beraya kat kampong FIL. 8 hours trip from Kuching to Sibu, another 2 hours trip to Matu and i was 6 mths preggo. Penat tapi best wooo. I even learnt some Melanau words!
-gave birth to my precious baby boy through an emergency c-section. It was one hell of an experience. Reminding me that Allah is the best planner.
-my husband got a job offer he's been aiming for at an airlines company. It makes me happy seeing him happy with his new job. As for me, of course im happy for the free and discounted air tickets muahaha!


From this...

To this!


Second honeymoon and besties vacay!

Roadtrip to Sibu. Merentas sungai naik feri hokay..

Kawen lagi yeay!

My girls in crime. Nakal sama-sama. Kawen lebih kurang sama. Pregnant sama-sama. Beranak sama-sama.
Good planning!


That's all i can gather from the top of my head.



Wishing all of you a happy, fulfilling and blessed 2013!

Realization

Remember this post where i babbled about Afif's 3D/4D scan?

Here's the comparison:

Catching up on ZZzzzZzZzzZzz..

Yawnnn..

i can't believe how same he looks in and out of the womb!

Sigh..

It's seems like it's only yesterday that i am heavily pregnant with him. Seeing my tummy move dan senget sebelah. Feeling his hiccups twice a day. Not feeling alone because i know that i have him inside of me all the time. His kicks and punches as if to remind me "i'm here mama!". Now dah keluar budaknya. Nak dekat 3 bulan pon haa umurnya. Sometimes i look at him and say "It's YOU that was in there.. Ini rupanya budak kuat menendang ni.."

How time flies.

The next thing i know, he'll be running around the house, going off to school, leaving me for boarding school, off to university across the sea, getting married..

i guess i got carried away.

What i'm trying to say that, i have came to a realization that people grow. This baby in my arms will grow up. He won't stay little and pure. He won't be my baby forever. Now i'm his everything, i'm his favorite person in the whole wide world. There will come a day that he would not need me anymore.

Before that day come, i'm gonna cherish every single moment we share. Kissing him like there's no tomorrow. Hugging him til it feels like i'm gonna crush him. Telling him stories about his mom and dad, atoks and neneks, and everything he wants to know.

Because the dreaded day will come when he's too grown up to run back to mama's ketiak. When i'll no longer be there for him..

Friday, December 28, 2012

Happiness is..

..waking up to his smiling face, cooing as if saying "Mama bangun laaa. I wanna play!"

Confinement Lady Review

Haaa engko dah 2 minggu masuk keje baru nak review confinement lady hape kes? Better late than never lah kan?

Most pregnant ladies in KL will surely look for a confinement lady. Ye lah convenient, takyah balik kampung nak suruh mak jaga bagai. As for me yang takda mak ni, memang terpaksa lah amek confinement lady.

i was recommended to Ros Confinement Care by a friend. Aku tengok kawan aku tu pas bersalin slim dan cantik je.. Dia pon beriya-iya memuji Cik Ros ni. Maka percaya lah kat dia. Booked Cik Ros ni masa 5 bulan preggy aritu. Advance sangat khenn?

Started my session with her on the 10th day post-partum. She's right on time. Kol 9am dah sampai. A pleasant woman, sangat keibuan. Kita selalu dengar kalo bersalin secara c-section takleh berurut, bertungku, berbengkung segala. Semua itu disangkal oleh Cik Ros. Dia anak 5, semuanya c-section. Katanya everytime pas bersalin, dia berpantang buat je berurut, bertungku, berbengkung semua tu. Cuma kene start lambat sikit compared to those yang bersalin normal, tempat jahitan takleh disentuh dan si bidan kene pandai cara urutan.

Cik Ros ada sediakan pakej-pakej nya. Korang tengok lah sendiri kat FB dia. For me, i initially took a 2-weeks package but at the end of first week tu dia kata i'm strong enough and recovering well. Tak payah bazir duit upah Cik Ros smpai 2 minggu katanya.

What do i get? Everyday dia datang kol 9 pagi. Dia mandikan baby, tuam baby, baby massage and siapkan pakai baju bedung segala. Bila baby dah tido baru dia belai mak baby pulak. Started off with scrub (scrub dia buat on first and seventh day sahaja), mandi air herba, bertungku, urut, tangas, pakai param dan last sekali berbengkung dan pakai pilis. Selesai dia belai-belai badan kita gini, dia gi dapur masakkan makanan pantang untuk tengah hari dan malam sekali. Selepas makan, dia kasi minum air rebusan akar (pahitnya Tuhan saja lah yang tahu). Selesai semua ni dia balik. The whole session usually ends at about 1-2pm.

All the things needed macam minyak urut, param, pilis, air jamu, air mandian akar, etc semua Cik Ros sediakan. Kalau tak beli set bersalin pon takpe. Tapi bahan memasak kene lah sediakan sendiri.

Habis seminggu session dengan dia, i carried on confinement period myself. Makanan pantang Wan masakkan tapi ada lah sekali dua makan KFC, Kenny Rogers hewhewhew. Baby mandikan sendiri. Pantang koboi je aku ni. Bengkung kalo rajin pakai tapi selalunya memang tak pakai lah. Stokin memang tak tanggal. Param and pilis memang aku tak pakai sebab rimas nanti rumah bersepah. Jamu pon tak makan sebab Afif macam kembung kalo aku makan jamu. Cuma minom air rebusan halia Wan buat. Koboi sangat khenn?

Cik Ros datang lagi on day 41-43 untuk buat penutup pantang pulak. Penutup pantang ni buat scrub, massage, tangas kering, and mandi bunga/air susu untuk kembalikan seri katanya. Mintak dia urutkan tutup sikit rahim tu. To be honest i'm not ready for another child anytime soon (tak puas lagi manja-manja ngan Afif) so urut tutup rahim ni adalah one of the ikhtiar lah. Tapi tatau la if Allah has other plan for me kan?

All in all, i'm satisfied with Cik Ros' service. Urut sedap dan segala teknik/ritual ni memang ikot cara orang dolu-dolu. Plus Cik Ros ni adalah bekas nurse. So dia pandai balance kan modern and traditional technique. Lagi lah puas hati apabila i'm back to my pre-pregnancy weight sebelom abes confinement period. Sebenarnya ada lg 1 kg ni susah bebenau nak hilang but i'm not complaining. Maybe that extra 1 kg is comes from Miss Boobies iaitu susu untuk Afif huahua..

If you're interested and wants to contact Cik Ros, quote my name (Teefa or Fifa.. Dia suka panggil aku Fifa haha..). Takde la dapat diskaun tapi tak lah dia pelik siapa lah pandai-pandai rekemen dia ni.. Tidak lah jugak aku dapat komisen. Sharing is caring tak gittew? This is her phone number 012-2437054 and you could also search her on Facebook at ros.confinement@gmail.com
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Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Afif's 2 Month Milestone

Pejam celik pejam celik masuk hari dah 2 bulan umur anak mama. How time flies huh?

Having a baby is definitely life-changing. i thought i know (almost) everything needed to know about having a newborn. Ye lah sebelom beranak dah baca macam-macam buku, Google macam-macam tajuk pasal newborn. Dari kecik pon banyak jaga cousin dan sedara mara kecik. Tapi sebenarnya bila dah rasa sendiri baru lah tau.

Afif's First Month

- Dia paling tak suka kene bedung. Kalo kene bedung je he'll fight his way out of it. Fight his way back to freedom. Prove? There's a video of him at the age of 2-days-young with his right arm out of swaddle, waving in the air. Ada jugak gambar dia masa umur 6 hari tangan genggam ke atas macam celebrate hari merdeka. Haha. Tapi memang dipaksa la bedung. Especially time tido malam.
- Kuat menyusu. Sekali session sampai 45 minit. Sejam kemudian dia lapar lagi. Ye lah, lahir tak cukup minggu. Beratnya pon 2.34kg je. i believe he drinks a lot to grow. Alhamdulillah banyak susu rezeki untuk Afif.
- Start mid of second week, dia suka berjaga malam. Waktu feveret dia adalam 1-4am. If i'm lucky he only cried a little but most nights dia nangis macam kene dera je. Time ni memang menguji kesabaran. He cries and cries but you don't know why and you don't know what to do. Kami laki bini buntu. Kadang rasa nak baling je budak. Best we can do is take turn holding him, baca ayat-ayat Quran, sing to him, nurse him. Nasib baik ada Wan. Dia la banyak tolong bagi tips, tolong tenangkan Afif, tolong jaga Afif bila mama daddy nya dah tak larat.
- Suka tido siang. Kadang tengah mandi pon tido. Sabar je la.
- Paling suka mandi. Time mandi dia confirm senyap sambil muka happy. i think it's because i went swimming and snorkeling in Phuket when i was pregnant with him. Maka terkenan kat dia Huhu.
- Suka senyum dan gelak masa tengah tido. Memang biasa lah baby senyum time tido kan? Tapi dia ni gelak pon boleh. Tapi tak la gelak cam orang tua. Gelak takda gigi pastu tak cukup bunyi. Breathy laugh gitu. Memula ingatkan dia sesak nafas. Rupanya ketawa. Itu lah penghibur hati mama.
- Sebab dia ni kecik orangnya, segala mittens, booties and socks longgar dipakai. Asyik cabut je. Umur 3 minggu camtu baru dapat pakai. Baju pon semua besar macam pakai baju pinjam.
- Tak suka left booby, suka yg kanan je. Nak susu pon memilih dia ni. Ada flavor agaknya susu tu. Haha.
- Suka daddy dia dodoikan. Kalo mama dodoi dia macam tak selesa.

 Day 6. Tangan merdeka.

Second week. Ada satu malam ni rasa macam badan dia panas. Letak Cool Fever pastu okay.

 Bedung pakai kain batik is the best. Kuat, susah dia meronta.

 This was taken at 4am. i was desperately trying to get him to sleep. Dia ngantok tapi lawan mata.
 
 On his first monthsarry!

Afif's Second Month

- Still tak suka bedung. Tapi malam memang dibedung sebab kalau tak, dia terperanjat.
- Still kuat nyusu. Mid of sixth week dia dah adjust timing to 2-2.5hours skali. Sebab dipaksa, dia boleh terima left booby jugak.
- Alhamdulillah body clock dia adjust starting from 6th week camtu. Dalam kol 11pm dia tido. Bangun menyusu around kol 1am, 4am and 7am. Bersyukur sangat dapat la mak bapaknya tido malam.
- Most nights tak meragam. Kalau meragam pon awal malam around 8pm. Cecepat mamanya urut perot dengan minyak Yu Yi Cap Limau. Kadang tu kalau kembung, kami bagi Gripe Water.
- Nak tido mesti kene tido atas badan mamanya. These are the moment that i love the most. Rasa dekat dengan dia. Rasa dia sayang sangat kat kita.
- Suka merengek. Kalau tak nyusu dan tak tido, selalunya merengek. Kalau senyap pon, dalam 10 minit camtu. Kalau orang dukung or riba baru la senyap. Cembleng, bahasa jawanya.
- Around 6th week dah pandai ajak borak. Cooing dan membebel bahasa dia. Tapi mata dia tak berapa adjust kat muka kita.
- 7th week pandai sengih-sengih, ajak borak, mata dah fokus kat muka orang and objects. Kalau tengah mood nak main or playtime tu, kene org layan dia. Bila kita stop layan je mesti dia nanges.
- Kami ajar dia pakai pacifier masa umur 7 minggu but he hates it. Ada sekali ni je dia sedut bebetol. Pastu hampeh tanak dah. Buaian pon dibelikan masa 7 weeks. Sebab risau nanti dah start keje Wan yg akan jaga dia (sampai 4 bulan camtu). Jenuh la Wan kalo budak ni asyik nak berdukung je. Tu la belikan buaian untuk senangkan Wan.

..ape lagi eh? Ni je yang terlintas setakat ni. 
Suka tido atas mama. i'm dreading the day he'll be too big for this.

Sleepyhead!

His first makan-makan outing: at Dip n' Dip!

My heartbeat.

 Dah pandai main-main.
 

Being New Parents

Being new parents is sumpahlah penat weh. Yes i love my son, yes it's rewarding but i'm not gonna sugar-coat it. The longest sleep i have is 2.5 hours. As a mom, you have to feed, comfort, dukung, dodoikan, tidokan dia. When you're not tending to the baby you have to pump milk, basuh segala peralatan pump dan botol, and do baby's laundry (i don't trust any other people except hubby and i to do Afif's laundry). Memang susah nak ada masa untuk benda lain. It makes showering feels like a vacation. Takleh imagine camne la nanti ada 2-3 anak lagi.

When your baby cries and you don't know why or how to stop it is the worst feeling ever. You feel frustrated, tired, and at some point, angry. i feel like the worst mom ever. Nasib baik lah tak pernah hilang sabar lagi. Kalau rasa bengang, i'll just hug Afif and say "..and this too, shall pass". That's my mantra.

Worst is when Afif has his growth spurt. Kalau tengah growth spurt tu, sepanjang masa bergayut kat nenen, sepanjang masa menangis. Dah 2 kali dia growth spurt. i'm dreading the next one.

Paling menyampah bila makcik-makcik dan nenek-nenek suruh bagi susu formula. Kononnya anak nanges sebab susu badan tak mengenyangkan. Kononnya sebab tu anak aku kuat sangat nyusu. Itu memang mentality orang dulu-dulu. Diorang tak tau budak formula fed seems to be 'puas' or 'kenyang' adalah sebab susu formula susah nak di-digest. So the tummy needs more time to digest it, making the baby feels full a bit longer. Don't get me wrong. i don't have issue with formula. i know sooner or later i'd have to rely on it. But i'm determine to breastfeed my son until he's 2 years old. Paling kurang pon, setahun la. Selagi ada susu badan dan selagi Afif nak susu badan. So don't bring me down and ask me to formula feed. When i have to, pandai la aku bagi susu formula. Takyah orang suruh-suruh.

All these challenges are bearable when you have a good, understanding, patient partner that is there during these difficult times. i'm so thankful for my husband. We lean on each other. i could not ask for more.

Itu lah antara cabaran yang paling menduga bagi aku lah. At the end of the day, the tiredness, the crying, the kebengangan dgn orang sekeliling - all melts away when i see my baby grows healthily and happily. When i hold him in my arms and realize "He is all mine..". When he smiles and laugh (even just in his sleep). It makes everything worth it.


Sunday, December 9, 2012

Birth Story #1

WARNING : extremely long post.
Extremely long overdue.

It all started on Sunday, 7/10/2012.

Girlfriends Outing

Pagi-pagi dah bangon sebab excited nak kuar dengan girlfriends iaitu Shaq, Shaf and Nani. Shaf ngidam dimsum. i just wanna eat everything sebelum berpantang 44 hari nanti kononnya.

So we went to Mandarin Oriental for their dimsum. Our first time there (selalunya kami gi Quality Hotel or Sime Darby) and the foods are marvelous! Sayangnya takda buffet. Order ala carte. A bit pricy but definitely worth it (i'm actually drooling while typing this)

Selepas makan-makan, cadangnya nak gi try Dip n' Dip, the new dessert cafe offering all kinds of chocolates dishes. Before leaving the hotel, i went to the toilet and (gasp!) there's blood on my pantyliner. i was freaking out but tried to be cool and act normal around my friends as i don't want them to panic and send me to the hospital. Ye la kalo dah kene gi hospital bila la pulak nak gi Dip n' Dip khennn? Nak tunggu pas pantang tak sanggup eden.

Pastu nak masuk kereta perot dah start sakit period pain. (note: i've been having mild period pain for two weeks that time). Maka terpaksa berterus terang dengan the girls. As expected they freaked out and wanted to take me to PCMC straight away. But i said NO!!! Go to Dip n' Dip first baru gi hospital!! It's my body and it wants chocolate and you have to take me. Haaa begitu lah tahap kecintaan saya kepada coklat.

Called husband dearest and he'll meet me at PCMC.

Labour Room!

Lepas berpuas hati makan kat Dip n' Dip, Shaq and Nani sent me to PCMC. i thought the doctor will just check in the ER tapi rupanya straight away masuk labor room.

i was nervous. The girls are waiting at the waiting area outside the labour room. Husband datang tak lama pastu.

The midwife seluk (Sakit okay kene seluk) and found out i was 1cm dialated. i was like "Macam ni je ke sakit nak beranak.. Macam period pain je.." The hooked me on the CTG to monitor contraction. i had mild contraction every 20 minutes. Seriously i felt fine. Sakit cam period pain je. So i told the midwife i wanna go home. Taknak beranak lagi. Then she said "You dah macam in labour. Doctor suruh you warded for observation"

i was given steroid shots as a precautionary step. Kalau terberanak, i'd be having premature baby (time tu 36++ weeks) so the steroid will mature baby's lungs.

i ended up warded for 3 days, given two shots of steroid. Second day, the contraction dah tak regular. So third day, on 9/10/12 ( Tuesday )  i was permitted to go home.

Gaaahaha buat malu je false alarm. Pasni i swear if i have bleeding close to EDD i'll just shut up sampai lah datang real contraction or air ketuban pecah.

The Real Labor

The next day, which is Wednesday night, lagi sakit pulak period pain. By this time i know already period pain means contraction. Tapi buat bodoh je la walaupon nak tido tak berapa lena. Baru 37 weeks weh. i really didn't think i'm gonna beranak soon.

At 3.15am (Thursday) tetiba terjaga dari tido sebab sakit sangat perot. Try tido balik tak boleh. i sat up pastu rasa macam basah sket kat area va-jay-jay. Ingatkan aku terkencing, sebab ngantok sangat, try tido balik. Pastu tak sedap hati nak gi toilet la nak shishi. Bila bangun je, berjeburrr air keluar. My water broke! Mr. Chenta was in the bathroom at that time and i was like "Bibibbbbbbbb... Bibibbbbb!! My water broke!!!". Terus la kelam kabut laki bini.

Mr. Chenta ajak gi hospital and i was like "Noooo!! What if false alarm lagi?" (which is silly of me. Water breaking means you're in labor!). "It's okay bb. Jom tido.." i said bravely. Pas pakai maternity pad kononnya nak tido lah. Takda maknanya berjejeran air ketuban tu keluar. Last-last terpaksa la gi hospital.

Reached hospital around 4.15am. Terus masuk labour room (again). i was 2cm dilated. Midwife tu kata "Haaa.. ni bebetol nak beranak!" Hooked on to CTG. Regular contraction about 8 minutes apart. Sakit la jugak tapi tak lah tahap sakit nak mati. Midwife tanya nak epidural tak. i was in doubt. Nak ke tanak eh? Last-last aku cakap "Bearable lagi. Nanti kalau tak tahan sangat saya mintak lah.."

Sepanjang contraction tu sempat lagi baca surah Maryam, surah Yassin, makan-makan, bergurau dengan suami, gelak-gelak, amek gambar dan took a short nap. i'm glad to have a few hours to spend alone with my husband. We're excited but definitely nervous. Mr. Chenta even felt a bit nauseous. Muahaha..

Last pose as a child-less couple.

 Sempat laki aku baca mags & tido haa..

At around 9am Dr. Tan Yiap Hong (the replacement Ob/Gyn because Dr. Aziz is not around for 2 weeks can you believe it??) came and check up on me. Surprisingly i was still 2cm dialated. And then dia berkerut-kerut tengok CTG graph tu.

And then he said "You're still 2cm dilated which normally is not a problem. But baby's heart beat is low. Now it's 80. Normally minimum should be 110. We have no choice. Kene ceaser lah.."

Kami laki bini terkejut gila. Berderau darah time tu. In my head i was screaming "This is not part of the plannnn!" Dr. Tan explained that serviks tak bukak, with this low heart beat baby boleh lemas. Dengan berat hati, terpaksa pasrah je kene bedah. The worst thing is that my husband can't be in the operation thater coz it's an emergency c-section. Lagi lah rasa nak meraung je. Tapi keraskan hati buat-buat macho tahan nanges.

Emergency C-Section

Part kene usung pi OT tu aku rasa paling drama. Macam dalam drama tv. Mr. Chenta jalan sebelah katil, his face looked worried. Thousands of thoughts ran through my mind. Selamat kah anak aku nanti? OMG will i be fattttt? Coz selalunya orang beranak c-sect akan jadi gemok susah nak turun badan. Lagi nak meraung fikir pasal tu.

Around 10am masuk OT. Mr. Chenta dihalau keluar. i was prepped for epidural. Hamagad sakit ok dia masukkan epidural tu. Rasa macam electric shock down my spine. Pastu terus takleh gerak kaki dah. My body felt numb eventhough sebenarnya epi tu affect lower body je. Terlantar atas katil bedah tu teringat masa bedah tikus dalam kelas Biology form 5. Ini agaknya perasaan tikus tu.

i can't see the whole procedure sebab ada curtain diorang letak. i'm glad they did. Mau aku pengsan tengok diri sendiri kene toreh. Tapi masa kene bedah tu agak emosi. Coz i felt so alone. i just want my husband to be there.

At 10.36am (bak kata dalam report baby tu lah) keluar lah my Little Hero. Doctor tu kata "Your baby is here!" But i can't hear anything.. 2 saat pastu aku dengar dia tersedak-sedak pastu meraung. That was the most beautiful sound i have ever heard in my life. Sebak gilaa woo.. Again, i feel like crying but sebab saya macho, tahan je la. Nanges dalam hati katanya.

Then i heard the doctors gasp and said a few medical terms and something like "This is the first time we have this here!". Cuak aku. Apsal anak aku? Ada yang tak kene kah? But i didn't dare ask. i don't wanna find out.

A few minutes after that my baby was brought to me. Tapi sedih takleh pegang dia. i kissed him then he was brought away to the nursery to be cleaned. Aku still terlentang kat situ. Kene jahit balik.

At around 11am the whole procedure finished. Time tu menggigil kesejukan - side effect of epidural. Stay jap kat area OT tu for God-knows-what kol 11.30am camtu baru diusung masuk dalam bilik. Thank God Mr. Chenta was there waiting for me anxiously but still smiling.

"i saw our son!" he exclaimed. "Tadi naik lif dengan dia.. He opened his eyes. Kecik-kecik pandai bukak mata! He was looking at me.."

Waiting for Afif to be brought back to us felt like a lifetime. Berkali-kali aku tanya "Mana Afif?".. Dua kali aku suruh laki aku tanya nurse lama lagi ke dia kat nursery.. i was anxious. Mungkin sebab terkenang apa doctors tu berborak dalam OT tadi. Dalam kol 12.30pm camtu baru dia masuk bilik. Mr. Chenta azan dan iqamatkan. Syahdu gilaa time tu. Sebak. Then i breastfed him for the first time ever. Alhamdulillah ada colostrum and Afif latched on excellently for a first timer.

Later that afternoon Dr. Tan came to check up on me. Rupanya yang diorang kecoh dalam OT tu tadi sebab tali pusat Afif adalah sangat pendek and at that point, dah nak terputus. Patut lah susah nak buka serviks tu. Sebab dia tak boleh turun to trigger the opening. "We're lucky that we decided to ceasar quickly. Tadi kalau lambat sikit, tak tau la apa jadi.." he said. Alhamdulillah. (Wan pon kata masa dia basuh uri, memang pendek tali pusat. Sejengkal camtu je..)

Post operation, tak rasa apa-apa sebab kaki still numb. Rasa penat and emotionally drained. Rasa tak berguna coz bila Afif nanges nak susu, i can't get him myself. Kene Mr. Chenta angkat kasi kat aku. Petang tu bius hilang, baru start rasa sakit. At that point i felt like "Cukuplahhhh.. Tanak ngandung dah.." Nurse suruh duduk atas katil for the rest of the day. Takleh bangun dulu. That night, i broke down and cried to my hesband. The whole day was overwheling.. Dah tahan nanges dari pagi haaa hamek ko terus meroyan mlm tu. Baru lega rasa..

Shaf came at around 2pm. Mak and Maksu dia pon datang. Later that afternoon Shaq came. Linda, Butet, Wan and  Redha pon datang..

Esoknya baru boleh bangun. i walked around the room to exercise my legs. Tapi sakit la jugak takleh tunduk and gerak laju.My crazy colleagues pon datang. penuh gak lah bilik. Thanks to As, Pip, Pijot, Feena, Niza, Ogy, Anna, Zarith, Mariah, Amal, Hazman, Sherry, Sue-mae, Yu he, Yoga, Lina, Tim, In, Jiah, Zatil and sesapa lagi yang terlepas nama. Diorang ni semua datang on second day. Thanks for the hadiahs. Tatau dah which hadiah is from which one of you but we really appreciate it.

 Some of the gang.

Thanks jugak to Faiz + Shila, Hazwan + Myra, Nadiia + partner, Chuna + Mael, families, dan semua yang datang melawat.

Warded for 4 days. Dapat balik rumah on Sunday. Alhamdulillah Afif takda kuning. Even the doctor was amazed. "Apa you buat haaa baby takda kuning langsung. Selalu babies yang almost premature ni teruk kuning nya.."

That was my Labor + Ceasarean experience. It definitely took us by surprise but Allah is the best planner.